About Tartu Marathon

this year's marathon was a true suffering. It already started 3 days before the start when i got a cold. luckily only a slight fever, so i still wanted to start and ignore the weather forecast that promised snowstorm.
So in the sunday morning i was ready to start the 63km on skis. thanks to the fact that i had skipped last two marathons i had to start from the position around 3800 not 1400 like my previous position. So at the start i just couldn't move because the track was too crowded, but i was thinking that after few kilometers there would be more space and i could slowly start climbing up the leaderboard. Sadly, after these kilometers i discovered the nightmare - my skis, there were no problems when going uphill but at the downhills and flat parts, well it was really hard to move and others just slided past me. despite all that, as i discovered later, i had climbed around 1000 places in the first half of the race, but the i surrended, i saw that there's no hope for good time or place and my back started hurting so i decided to just slowly crawl till the end. When i slowed my pace down i started to feel the cold, luckily the weather was ok - only -10 and hardly no wind. and with that cold - sweat froze on my right eye. But the end of my suffers was not even near. about 15km before the finish i felt that my legs were starting to cramp, because i had to use different muscles, because of the skis i could ski normally. but for the last 5km i practicly didn't feel my legs ad all, so i just used my hands to get to the finish. And i did - it was a miracle, because due to the bad skis, i was thinking about retiring since 20km from the start.

How much can a human torture him/herself, well i probably can do it a lot. But what is the result - i lost have of those places i had climbed before, i didn't enjoy the time on the track and i got a really BAD result - for what - i have no idea....

I wanted to add a photo of me to this blog, but although photographers took thousands of photos during the race - i haven't found even one - where i am on.

(Probably i forgot to write about some fallbacks i suffered during the race....)
I'm a self-torturer